Amidst
the emptiness of my dreams,
In
the still void of my life,
You
have garlanded me with glorious
Strings
of incessant love and solicitude.
You
have sprung upon my life as North Star.
Unto
you and you alone I owe
A
shoreless sea of altruistic love.
In
the guise of your intense love,
I
have breathed the new air of life;
In
the immensity of your stalwart love,
I
have seen the reason for my existence.
I
have never felt deep your warmth,
Your
loving touch, your puissant presence—
You
are the one I have been in lookout for
Since
myriad summers and winters;
But
when you did come over me
I
took you for any other monsoon.
What
a fool I have been!
I
broke your heart but I realize it only today.
I
try to eclipse sorrow but if only I can stop my tears!
I
walk like a last man alive in the war
Though
I am incurably wounded.
My
heart profusely bleeds
And
I can barely see through these thick tears;
I
never felt such pain until this realization.
No
anesthetic works on me,
No
smile ignites joy in me.
Naught
brings solace unto me!
Your
soothing words come at play
As
they always did.
But
they echo and re-echo only to deafen me.
Your
remembrance is no more a panacea
But
a cold dungeon.
And
even the man in the mirror frowns at me—
I
spend sleepless nights
Trying
to calm those chaotic climates my heart holds.
You
sneaked out of my heart
And
gave me no time to talk it through;
Perhaps
I didn’t deserve that too.
When
I realized you gave me a minute for some fun
You
were already into someone;
When
I realized I was losing my ground
It
was too late to turn around.
When
I realized my North Star was clogged by the clouds
It
was of no help crying aloud.
Surely
my heart shattered into a plethora of pieces
But
I’m looking at you with apologetic eyes
If
you can feel what I’m going through;
Hoping
you will come over
And
pick up all those shreds of mine.
I
might rest on my pyre but for a while
Yet
I will not give up my wait…
Awaiting
you!!!
