Silent Sobs

THE pungent smell of your perfume wafts

Subtly by the tear-decked corridors of my mind,

Bringing forth, as it often does, a deluge of memories…

And it’s only in remembering you

That smiles playfully see-saw on my sunken face

Your artfully made up face emits sparks

That lights the darkest of my nights;

You came like a snowfall

And went away like angry blizzards…

And I haven’t seen light since.

Darkness smiled at me and I found

A worthy companion in it,

That I shudder at the name of light…

It is in the darkness I see your eyes glint

And the darkness makes you all too brighter

But you are the brightest in my memories

Where you are the soul inhabitant...

I am surrounded by many a friend

And as they hoot with strings of laughter

I can barely fake a smile;

Through my tear-tanned eyes

They come to know why I keep to myself

And they know they can’t blame me

For my indifference!!!

Each day I wake up early to catch the sunrise

But it denies to greet me with its warm kiss

Its blatant denial slowly corrodes my heart

With sorrows I haven’t known before

For it was in the warmth of morn sun

I saw my love grow...

And each night I stay awake waiting

To steal a glimpse of a kalapinka

Singing with all its heart and soul,

But it’s been quite a while

That I haven’t heard its soul-soothing singings

Perhaps I will never hear its songs again.

As the chaos whirling within has broken

This heart of mine into disarray

The songs only irk me...

But it was kalapinka’s song where I could

Unlink myself from the world’s woes

And I turned to its songs for solace

And it’s in its songs I could aptly converse

My sighs of wanting love

And whispers of burning desire...

And if we ever meet again

Let me never see you in tears

I may not be able to hold mine own,

Let alone wiping yours;

Let me never feel that you are troubled

I may not be able to ease your troubles;

And let me never find you faking smiles

I may not be able to take them in...

I shall shift my path if I see you first

Before I get a different mind

And away I will go before you can see me,

But if it’s you who sees me first

Then I have to be awfully sorry again...